Relax already

So some days, you just have to put your robe on over your schlumpy clothes at 4pm and just give up. Yesterday was that day for me.
Three days ago I named my blog "happy times" and then yesterday I'm mired in a pessimistic, depressive toxic goo. WTH? All the things I saw were going so well, and all the positivity I felt was just *poof* gone.
This retreat I'm going on, you know, the one where I get to totally relax? Well, it's stressing me out. The irony is not lost on me. But I realize I get this way every time a retreat rolls around. I try so hard to make it perfect and get everything organized that I drive myself crazy. So I'm trying to loosen up and let the chips fall where they may.
Good idea for life in general, actually.