I can't complain about my life at all. I want to, because whining is one of my favorite hobbies. My life is good because I have a faith that works for me. While I can take blame for a few things, I can take no credit for the coolness that happens to me all the time.
Having said that, life is still a series of events. There are circumstances that are less than perfect and perspective is important if you're going to be of service in the lives of others. I am in a peaceful emotional and spiritual spot right now, which is good.
Because for the first time in my life I am looking for work. I could get really freaked out about this. Starbucks is the only "choice" I ever made as far as the pursuit of a paycheck is concerned. The phone company and my teen job both engulfed me with out much decision-making on my part. There is a little bit of fear that I will make the wrong choice or ruin an opportunity with all the possibilities, the wide open-ness of it all.
I love working at Starbucks and want to continue working there, but unless things move very quickly I don't know what's going to happen. I am keeping myself completely open to the possibilities. The universe usually has bigger plans for me than I do.
The alternative to staying open to the possibilities of things is setting myself up for disappointment. While that used to be another one of my favorite hobbies, I no longer find it quite as interesting. Life is better when you let it happen.
I do have a dream job in my head, several possibilities that would thrill. I believe it's possible to make a living doing something that you love, and that you're good at. I believe I deserve the opportunity to find out what that feels like. I am visualizing it and getting excited about it... while being practical.
Do you like your job? If the answer is "yes" then I'd like to know if they're hiring. And if you'd be willing to give me a reference!
Friday, February 5, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Happy Times Reunion... with myself
I haven't blogged in a long time. Basically after Facebook became my friend. Why post full sentences and paragraphs every couple days when I can constantly update you?
But now that I think about it, it really doesn't matter who reads this as much as it matters that I write it. For my own sake and sanity. I have a really good life and a very strong forgetter...
If you do read it then *hi* and *thanks* and here we go again...
Lately things are going very well. I have no complaints except I'm not working enough. And that will all change hopefully sooner than later and then I'm going to be complaining about working too much. Ahhh, such is life.
I'm finding I have nothing to say on my first post back. I am feeling shy! Well, if you know me at all, you know that won't last for long. So check back soon and hopefully I'll have something interesting to say!
But now that I think about it, it really doesn't matter who reads this as much as it matters that I write it. For my own sake and sanity. I have a really good life and a very strong forgetter...
If you do read it then *hi* and *thanks* and here we go again...
Lately things are going very well. I have no complaints except I'm not working enough. And that will all change hopefully sooner than later and then I'm going to be complaining about working too much. Ahhh, such is life.
I'm finding I have nothing to say on my first post back. I am feeling shy! Well, if you know me at all, you know that won't last for long. So check back soon and hopefully I'll have something interesting to say!
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Happy, Home Again.
I was in Burbank for 10 days. That's a long time. While I didn't get much done, I still did a lot of stuff. To prove it, I have parking passes for Dodger Stadium, Disney, Angel's Stadium and the Long Beach Aquarium in my car. Next time I see you, they will still be in my car, so feel free to ask to see the proof.
Boy is she adorable.
There was plenty of stuff I didn't get to do. Like see my friends more... I mean I saw them, but not like I do when I'm only in town for a couple of days. It was like I had too much time so I had no sense of urgency. Weird. Anyway, now that I'm back I wish I would've seen more of them.
I did see this cutie a couple times:
Boy is she adorable. BTW, this guy is pretty adorable too:
He got us great tickets for the game on Tuesday... And he got me the coolest present for my birthday! It's a purse that you changes its shell. So you can always have a different look. YAY!
He got us great tickets for the game on Tuesday... And he got me the coolest present for my birthday! It's a purse that you changes its shell. So you can always have a different look. YAY!Here's Cedric at the Dodgers & Angels exhibition game. That was fun, I got to hang out with my cousin... even though the Angels lost...
And I saw my cousin again when we went to the Long Beach Aquarium on Friday... we took her nieces so spending time with them was cool too. Then, just to make sure I didn't miss out on the true LA experience, I drove through rush hour (ahem AT 2PM!!!) traffic on the 710, 5 and 101 freeways. Wheee!!
I also went to a choir competition at my old high school and saw some people I hadn't seen in a decade or so. I'm sure I did other things...
At any rate, I'm glad to be home and now I'm going to try to get back into a yoga and hiking routine... Yesterday was my first day back at work and it was a doozy. Easter apparently equals coffee time in this brave new world. We were BUSY!
Ok off to work...
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Things and Stuff
Gabe has suffered a relapse with his back pain. It's a full-on relapse: he can't get comfortable, no standing or sitting for long, ice packs and ibuprofen, no driving or having any fun of any kind. He basically has to lay there and suffer. It's really frustrating for both of us, although at least I can walk around the house and grab a coke if I'm thirsty.
I don't want him to have surgery if he can help it, but he just went downhill so quickly. He was fine Tuesday and then BAM! on Wednesday he was hurt. The next day he was completely immobile. So, while it makes me nervous and I have various concerns, I am more open to the idea of him having something radical done to alleviate the pain.
On a much funner note, I tried a new class yesterday. It's called Yoga Flirt, which is code for pole dancing with a yoga twist. My legs hurt. But it was so much fun. A great workout, women only and talking out and laughing is encouraged. I'm also hoping that there will be an opportunity to meet some other women who might not be quite as... straight-laced as most of the women (with some shiny, happy exceptions) I've met up here so far.
One of those shiny, happy exceptions is my old/new friend Bethany. She's really cool and interesting, we had coffee last night and I had to force myself to go home! We went on a hike this week, with Lucas. He slowed us down a lot, and it was awesome. I heard birds and saw things I'd never paid attention to on that trail. Here's a picture of Bethany and Lucas, flying.
I don't want him to have surgery if he can help it, but he just went downhill so quickly. He was fine Tuesday and then BAM! on Wednesday he was hurt. The next day he was completely immobile. So, while it makes me nervous and I have various concerns, I am more open to the idea of him having something radical done to alleviate the pain.
On a much funner note, I tried a new class yesterday. It's called Yoga Flirt, which is code for pole dancing with a yoga twist. My legs hurt. But it was so much fun. A great workout, women only and talking out and laughing is encouraged. I'm also hoping that there will be an opportunity to meet some other women who might not be quite as... straight-laced as most of the women (with some shiny, happy exceptions) I've met up here so far.
One of those shiny, happy exceptions is my old/new friend Bethany. She's really cool and interesting, we had coffee last night and I had to force myself to go home! We went on a hike this week, with Lucas. He slowed us down a lot, and it was awesome. I heard birds and saw things I'd never paid attention to on that trail. Here's a picture of Bethany and Lucas, flying.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
School Daze
I haven't been putting up posts because the most exciting stuff in my life happens to me on Facebook. I'm only joking a little!
That might be all about to change though, if I do end up going back to school. Meeting new people (with like interests, YAY) and homework and hopefully singing too! I was just talking about how I made a choice to not go to school because I didn't like it. It's kind of embarrassing, really. BUT! To me there's a whole facet of college I never considered that doesn't involve taking classes that you don't want to take for a degree. I just want to go and get a certificate, learn how to do what I want and then move on! Well that's how I feel now. At this point I wouldn't be surprised if you told me I was soon going to be studying for my Ph.D.
What I've become interested in over the past year or so is interior design. I absolutely devour the shows on HGTV and am so fascinated by the transformations. I would like it if that was something I could do. So I'm going to try to do it, and we'll see what comes of it.
I'm a little apprehensive about transcripts, paperwork, registration, being able to get the classes I want, etc. But I just have to take it one thing at a time, so if I can remember that I'm cool. I actually have fun filling out forms, if you can believe it! The thing is not to talk myself out of it before I even start.
That might be all about to change though, if I do end up going back to school. Meeting new people (with like interests, YAY) and homework and hopefully singing too! I was just talking about how I made a choice to not go to school because I didn't like it. It's kind of embarrassing, really. BUT! To me there's a whole facet of college I never considered that doesn't involve taking classes that you don't want to take for a degree. I just want to go and get a certificate, learn how to do what I want and then move on! Well that's how I feel now. At this point I wouldn't be surprised if you told me I was soon going to be studying for my Ph.D.
What I've become interested in over the past year or so is interior design. I absolutely devour the shows on HGTV and am so fascinated by the transformations. I would like it if that was something I could do. So I'm going to try to do it, and we'll see what comes of it.
I'm a little apprehensive about transcripts, paperwork, registration, being able to get the classes I want, etc. But I just have to take it one thing at a time, so if I can remember that I'm cool. I actually have fun filling out forms, if you can believe it! The thing is not to talk myself out of it before I even start.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Back From Burbank
Honey, I'm home! That's right, back from Burbank and happy as always to return to the land of peace and greenery. I couldn't actually stay as long as I planned! I wanted to come home too badly so I left late Thursday night.
I went to Disneyland by myself, since Kate, Giddy and Bliss all have jobs and things. It was really nice and relaxing but not as much fun as when I go with a friend. I did get to go on Tower of Terror twice, which I wouldn't subject any one else to!
The Peter Pan ride was magical as always and It's a Small World has gotten a fair amount of spit and polish and is all shiny and new again.
While I was down in the LA area I got to see only some of my good friends! A couple were just too busy this time around. But I got to see my childhood friend and give her a birthday hug and a little present. We've known each other 23 years now! Zoinks!!
Gabe is doing MUCH better which is great! I have my husband back, and he has his freedom back. It's fab. The acupuncture really was the magic we had been looking for. He's still going to see an orthopedic surgeon on Monday, just to be on the safe side.
I met up with an old high school friend and her 2 year old today, they just happen to live down the street from me here on the Central Coast... how bizarre! She's not some one I was super tight with in school, we were in choir together but she was a year older and I was pretty much a hag to every one anyway. But she remembered me when I sent her a message on Facebook, and was way into meeting up! So it's nice to think MAYBE I might have another local friend to add to my teeny tiny list. She also does yoga and still loves to sing, so we have some common interests. She is in a choir at Poly so I'm going to go check them out tonight. YAY!
I went to Disneyland by myself, since Kate, Giddy and Bliss all have jobs and things. It was really nice and relaxing but not as much fun as when I go with a friend. I did get to go on Tower of Terror twice, which I wouldn't subject any one else to!
The Peter Pan ride was magical as always and It's a Small World has gotten a fair amount of spit and polish and is all shiny and new again.While I was down in the LA area I got to see only some of my good friends! A couple were just too busy this time around. But I got to see my childhood friend and give her a birthday hug and a little present. We've known each other 23 years now! Zoinks!!
Gabe is doing MUCH better which is great! I have my husband back, and he has his freedom back. It's fab. The acupuncture really was the magic we had been looking for. He's still going to see an orthopedic surgeon on Monday, just to be on the safe side.
I met up with an old high school friend and her 2 year old today, they just happen to live down the street from me here on the Central Coast... how bizarre! She's not some one I was super tight with in school, we were in choir together but she was a year older and I was pretty much a hag to every one anyway. But she remembered me when I sent her a message on Facebook, and was way into meeting up! So it's nice to think MAYBE I might have another local friend to add to my teeny tiny list. She also does yoga and still loves to sing, so we have some common interests. She is in a choir at Poly so I'm going to go check them out tonight. YAY!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Holding Steady
My mom left on Monday morning, it was nice to have her here. All she did was cook! I thought I must've gained 5 pounds in a week. But no, I can't blame her for my current state. That is all my fault. Part of it is not being in LA and having to look at starlet wannabes everywhere I go. People around here are all kinds of body types. I'm even starting to snap out of the idea that in order to be beautiful you've got to be a size 2 or smaller. Still, I don't want to keep extra weight on, and I definitely have been gaining slowly over the last year. About 15 pounds of slowly!
I've been doing about 3 yoga classes a week and I have to say I love it. The instructor works us very hard, so it's a great workout and yet also very calming. I have a bunch of free time on my hands, and it's better to take care of myself than to sit on the couch and eat bonbons. I'm not sure I can say that I'm totally bored yet, but I am out of the habit of hanging out with people. Which in one way is good, I don't feel lonely like I did when I first got here. Don't get me wrong I'm still annoyed with the fact that I have a total of 2 and a half friends up here, but I've gotten used to a certain amount of time just for me. What I do with that time is the important thing. I've got to try to be somewhat useful!
Gabe's feeling better so that's a nice change. He's back to his normal witty self, and we're getting to hang out a little more. Valentine's Day was nice and mellow, low-key. The acupuncture really helped him! Now he's been referred to a surgeon after his MRI results came through. I'm not worried though- if he has to have surgery to be better, I want him to have it.
Ok, off I go to work again!
I've been doing about 3 yoga classes a week and I have to say I love it. The instructor works us very hard, so it's a great workout and yet also very calming. I have a bunch of free time on my hands, and it's better to take care of myself than to sit on the couch and eat bonbons. I'm not sure I can say that I'm totally bored yet, but I am out of the habit of hanging out with people. Which in one way is good, I don't feel lonely like I did when I first got here. Don't get me wrong I'm still annoyed with the fact that I have a total of 2 and a half friends up here, but I've gotten used to a certain amount of time just for me. What I do with that time is the important thing. I've got to try to be somewhat useful!
Gabe's feeling better so that's a nice change. He's back to his normal witty self, and we're getting to hang out a little more. Valentine's Day was nice and mellow, low-key. The acupuncture really helped him! Now he's been referred to a surgeon after his MRI results came through. I'm not worried though- if he has to have surgery to be better, I want him to have it.
Ok, off I go to work again!
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