So much joy, two new babies!
I'm so happy where I am right now, newly wed and about to make a big move. I don't feel the need to complicate my life or make chaos like I used to. I know people love me and are just curious about my future plans.
BUT! It's hard to keep smiling when we just answered the "when's the wedding" question and (I swear!) immediately it's the "when are you having kids" question.
It's funny that people seemed shocked that Kim got pregnant so soon after she was married, considering that I've been married 5 months and have been asked "when, when, when" from day one. I know that's what Kim wanted to do, but Gabe and I are making some pretty big changes right now, and having a child (or 2!) is not tops on our agenda right this minute.
Ok, ok so I'm a little grumbly today. I don't feel all that good and I desperately miss my husband. He's been gone since Sunday and while I really filled up my schedule to keep from getting lonely, it's just not the same when he's not around. So I'm happy that he's returning to me this afternoon/evening.
Friday, November 30, 2007
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Morgan
Perfect! Good job, Kim and Daric. Apparently, I have done a good job naming my blog. These are happy, happy times.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Preparations have begun
I party planned with my girlfriends on Sunday, and not only are my friends the coolest thing ever, they also have very good party ideas. Gabe and I are going to have a rockin' send-off! And while I am sad to go I just LOVE a party, especially when I have a say on the guest list.
So between party planning and house hunting, everything is kind of coming to a head. Even the stubbornest of my in denial friends are beginning to come around to the fact that the move is actually happening.
Yay! Boo! I don't remember a time I've been more divided. I'm hardly ambivalent, but I AM undecided on what's "best." Which is unusual for me as I am very opinionated. I guess I'm realizing that I've made the choices, and the results of those choices are not up to me. I have to rely on a power greater than myself to figure out the outcome.
And I am remembering that it's the journey, and not the destination, that I am here for. So I'm trying to spend a lot of time with my friends, enjoy the holiday season and just generally remain present and concious of my current surroundings. Soakin' up the love!
So between party planning and house hunting, everything is kind of coming to a head. Even the stubbornest of my in denial friends are beginning to come around to the fact that the move is actually happening.
Yay! Boo! I don't remember a time I've been more divided. I'm hardly ambivalent, but I AM undecided on what's "best." Which is unusual for me as I am very opinionated. I guess I'm realizing that I've made the choices, and the results of those choices are not up to me. I have to rely on a power greater than myself to figure out the outcome.
And I am remembering that it's the journey, and not the destination, that I am here for. So I'm trying to spend a lot of time with my friends, enjoy the holiday season and just generally remain present and concious of my current surroundings. Soakin' up the love!
Friday, November 23, 2007
Holiday ramblings of love and gratitude
Okay, I admit it. I love the holidays.
It has not always been this way! In fact, quite the opposite. The holidays themselves are exactly the same, but my opinion of them has been changed by a few things. One of which is the pleasure of giving gifts.
Boy do I love buying people presents. Stuff that reminds me of them (or reminds them of me!), or that I think that they shouldn't have to live without. Stuff they wouldn't buy themselves. I like the thinking of others, the looks on their faces when they open the present, the feeling of satisfaction I get when I've nailed it.
And, to put it even more simply, I love SHOPPING!
Another reason I've grown so fond of the last two months of the year is that I've really learned to appreciate the people in my life, family and friends. Thanksgiving and Christmas are good times to really get how important it is to cherish what I have. I try to do it all year long, but hey, nobody's that good.
This is our first Christmas as a married couple, which makes it feel extra special. I have new relatives because of it, a sister and a dad. I am so stoked!
I hope what ever your view is of the holidays, you get the most out of the last of 2007.
It has not always been this way! In fact, quite the opposite. The holidays themselves are exactly the same, but my opinion of them has been changed by a few things. One of which is the pleasure of giving gifts.
Boy do I love buying people presents. Stuff that reminds me of them (or reminds them of me!), or that I think that they shouldn't have to live without. Stuff they wouldn't buy themselves. I like the thinking of others, the looks on their faces when they open the present, the feeling of satisfaction I get when I've nailed it.
And, to put it even more simply, I love SHOPPING!
Another reason I've grown so fond of the last two months of the year is that I've really learned to appreciate the people in my life, family and friends. Thanksgiving and Christmas are good times to really get how important it is to cherish what I have. I try to do it all year long, but hey, nobody's that good.
This is our first Christmas as a married couple, which makes it feel extra special. I have new relatives because of it, a sister and a dad. I am so stoked!
I hope what ever your view is of the holidays, you get the most out of the last of 2007.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
The baby race has a winner!
Well, that's not actually confirmed yet... but it's an inevitability. My husband's business partner told us that the doctor decided to induce his wife's labor at about 6pm last night. So we're just waiting for Sam Jr. to arrive, pretty much at any minute.
It's very exciting for a few reasons! There's the obvious: a baby being born can be a joyous occasion and in this case it definitely is. BUT there's also the implications on our life that didn't occur to me right away, until my husband mentioned house-hunting while he's up there manning the store. Eek!
This is becoming all too real. I am really looking forward to a fresh start, and for once I'm not leaving burning wreckage in my wake. Still, it's an unknown to me, what will it be like to live in a completely different place? One where I don't automatically know where the grocery store or gas station is, one where I only know three people total, one where all my other friends are three hours away.
In some ways, I can't wait to get the ball rolling in the new place. At the same time, I love the life we're living now.
I have this feeling of security and permanence that was an unexpected gift of marriage, trust and hope for the future like I've never had before. But mixed in with that is this feeling of impermanence of my surroundings. It's the weirdest mix of feelings I've had in a long time. But I'm happy that my husband and I have made a big, life-changing choice together, and that we're seeing it come to fruition slowly but surely.
It's very exciting for a few reasons! There's the obvious: a baby being born can be a joyous occasion and in this case it definitely is. BUT there's also the implications on our life that didn't occur to me right away, until my husband mentioned house-hunting while he's up there manning the store. Eek!
This is becoming all too real. I am really looking forward to a fresh start, and for once I'm not leaving burning wreckage in my wake. Still, it's an unknown to me, what will it be like to live in a completely different place? One where I don't automatically know where the grocery store or gas station is, one where I only know three people total, one where all my other friends are three hours away.
In some ways, I can't wait to get the ball rolling in the new place. At the same time, I love the life we're living now.
I have this feeling of security and permanence that was an unexpected gift of marriage, trust and hope for the future like I've never had before. But mixed in with that is this feeling of impermanence of my surroundings. It's the weirdest mix of feelings I've had in a long time. But I'm happy that my husband and I have made a big, life-changing choice together, and that we're seeing it come to fruition slowly but surely.
Monday, November 19, 2007
A good weekend
The retreat was wonderful, Father Terry brilliant and funny. I am feeling relaxed and happy that I am in a good place. I spent the weekend with some women who really help me to feel centered and grounded. I roomed with a woman I'm sponsoring and we talked and played cribbage and generally bonded.
And then I came home to my husband, and we went and took formal wedding photos at the beach! My photographer (http://jenniferjasso.com if you're looking) was fun and full of ideas. She was also pretty happy as she'd just gotten engaged to my old roommate the previous evening. Congratulations, Mike and Jen!!
You will see some formal wedding pictures as soon as I have them in my hands and figure out how to post them.
Here come the holidays in all their chaotic glory! I am ready and willing to participate in the festivities, although food is always an issue... two months of "oh just this once" can add up to quite a few pounds. I am looking forward to focusing on my family, football and anything else that doesn't include calories. It's hard because I just love to eat. LOVE IT. But I hope to make it to the new year in the same clothing size, so I will just have to make good choices. *sigh*
And then I came home to my husband, and we went and took formal wedding photos at the beach! My photographer (http://jenniferjasso.com if you're looking) was fun and full of ideas. She was also pretty happy as she'd just gotten engaged to my old roommate the previous evening. Congratulations, Mike and Jen!!
You will see some formal wedding pictures as soon as I have them in my hands and figure out how to post them.
Here come the holidays in all their chaotic glory! I am ready and willing to participate in the festivities, although food is always an issue... two months of "oh just this once" can add up to quite a few pounds. I am looking forward to focusing on my family, football and anything else that doesn't include calories. It's hard because I just love to eat. LOVE IT. But I hope to make it to the new year in the same clothing size, so I will just have to make good choices. *sigh*
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Relax already
So some days, you just have to put your robe on over your schlumpy clothes at 4pm and just give up. Yesterday was that day for me.
Three days ago I named my blog "happy times" and then yesterday I'm mired in a pessimistic, depressive toxic goo. WTH? All the things I saw were going so well, and all the positivity I felt was just *poof* gone.
This retreat I'm going on, you know, the one where I get to totally relax? Well, it's stressing me out. The irony is not lost on me. But I realize I get this way every time a retreat rolls around. I try so hard to make it perfect and get everything organized that I drive myself crazy. So I'm trying to loosen up and let the chips fall where they may.
Good idea for life in general, actually.
Three days ago I named my blog "happy times" and then yesterday I'm mired in a pessimistic, depressive toxic goo. WTH? All the things I saw were going so well, and all the positivity I felt was just *poof* gone.
This retreat I'm going on, you know, the one where I get to totally relax? Well, it's stressing me out. The irony is not lost on me. But I realize I get this way every time a retreat rolls around. I try so hard to make it perfect and get everything organized that I drive myself crazy. So I'm trying to loosen up and let the chips fall where they may.
Good idea for life in general, actually.
Monday, November 12, 2007
Here we go!
Well, here I go on a new frontier!
Hello to every one.
I would like to get my first post out of the way so I can relax about it.
So here it is.
Uh....
My husband suggested I get a blog to help me feel closer to my friends when we move. I am excited and nervous about the move (and the blog!) but am extremely hopeful about starting life in a new place.
But for now, I'm just going to try to enjoy the holidays and my friends for the rest of the time I am here.
I'm going on a spiritual retreat this weekend, and am so looking forward to it. It's become a tradition for me these past few years, to get away from my life and examine it from a bit of distance. I went for the first time about 5 years ago when I was in a really dark place. I talked and laughed with a bunch of women that I'd never really knew before and they saved my behind.
Now when I go to the retreat, I spend time with those women, that I don't get to see much in "real" life, and get to remember why I enjoy their company, and how important and influential they have been in my life and sanity.
I also get a chance to read and write and really relax with out feeling like I should be up and doing something. All in all, it's a great thing for me to do.
In fact, I enjoy it so much that I think that every one should try it at least once.
Hello to every one.
I would like to get my first post out of the way so I can relax about it.
So here it is.
Uh....
My husband suggested I get a blog to help me feel closer to my friends when we move. I am excited and nervous about the move (and the blog!) but am extremely hopeful about starting life in a new place.
But for now, I'm just going to try to enjoy the holidays and my friends for the rest of the time I am here.
I'm going on a spiritual retreat this weekend, and am so looking forward to it. It's become a tradition for me these past few years, to get away from my life and examine it from a bit of distance. I went for the first time about 5 years ago when I was in a really dark place. I talked and laughed with a bunch of women that I'd never really knew before and they saved my behind.
Now when I go to the retreat, I spend time with those women, that I don't get to see much in "real" life, and get to remember why I enjoy their company, and how important and influential they have been in my life and sanity.
I also get a chance to read and write and really relax with out feeling like I should be up and doing something. All in all, it's a great thing for me to do.
In fact, I enjoy it so much that I think that every one should try it at least once.
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