Happy-ish times

I had a short reprieve from my sinus infection. Now I have a pinched nerve. Whooo! Ah, the curveballs of life. Doesn't God know I have plans? Grrr.

The weather has cleared up again and it's not freezing outside. The sun is shining and it's a glorious day. So why do I feel so isolated? It might be because all of my friends are 3 hours away by car. It could be that I'm not putting myself out there enough at meetings or just in general. Possibly I am being too picky on whom I could consider a friend.

I love my husband dearly but I really don't want to depend on him to be my everything. That's a lot of pressure for one person, and as some of you might know: it never works out well. So I feel the need to find friends. I know that it's going to take time and will just happen eventually any way. But I. Want. Some. Friends. Now! Preferably a best friend who totally gets me and has exactly the same interests.

*Sigh*

Ok, back to reality. The reality is I'm lonely. The reality about that is it's totally understandable, even expected to some degree. And that real, true friendships take time and that's that. Did I really think a sunny disposition and a moderately decent sense of humor would have me crowned Miss Central Coast Popularity by now? Maybe a little...

Truth is, I want to be rescued from this feeling. I don't want to have it and I'd like some one to fix me immediately. That's a real problem, that I'd like some one else to step in and make changes instead of taking responsibility. No one is going to wave a magic wand and *poof* some friends into existence for me.

The good news is, I took matters into my own hands about finding a newcomer to work with. I now have a sponsee up here which is awesome. We are going to meet on the first step on Friday. As usual, I am being given what I need exactly when I need it.

Having said all that, I would still call these happy times. I am in a good place every other way than the friend thing. And remembering that that is a temporary situation is essential. I'm not really in a position to complain.