Living in the Moment

Humans are very adaptable. This is an important evolutionary trait for us, to be able to fit into situations quickly so we don't die or at the very least embarrass ourselves socially. Because we adapt so fast, sometimes things that are extraordinary become ordinary way too quickly.

My life is a good example of this! I do a lot of the same things every week, I go to work, I go home, I hang with my husband, I talk to people, I surf the internet, I work out. All fairly normal stuff. Okay, really normal stuff.

BUT!! That itself is a miracle, considering how truly screwed up I was a decade ago. I have slayed some serious personal demons to be the "normal" gal you see before you lately. I try not to forget that it took 10 years of therapy, some medication and a whole bunch of mental, emotional and spiritual housecleaning to get to wake up happy on any given day.

I do wake up happy though, I really do. It helps to remember that everything passes. Feelings, events, people, little doggies... they all pass on and what's important is that you have them while they're happening. Because if you're not living in the moment then you're not experiencing your life.

I'm really trying to live in the moment... I see big things in the future, things I want now. That makes me absent-minded about what's happening today and it blows my opportunity to be of service, to get a good laugh, to be a good friend.

Let's be clear that this miracle of a life is not in any way because of my strong character or willpower or sheer stubborness. I have been given a gift from the universe, I was just lucky enough to open the door when sanity knocked!

Okay, okay... I know these are deep thoughts! But I've been pondering what to write on this blog for a week. And this is what eventually came out when I sat down and logged in. So this is what you get. It's not even what I originally started typing about which is a whole other story!